I’m 함이량 (Ham I-Ryang). I was born in 1989 in North-Korea. My mom, my sister and I escaped in 2000-2002 and now we live in America. Even though I’m so thankful that I can live a great life, I’m so fed up with people lately. I always say I’m North-Korean instead of a Korean. I was born too rather wealthy parents with a good image, so I never had to suffer until our escape. However, now, whenever I say I’m from North-Korea, people can’t say anything else but “Don’t bomb America or Europe”, “Is Kim Jong Eun your father”, “Did you fake cry when kim jong il died”, “Aren’t you hungry”, “Have you ever lived in prison camps”, “Why can’t you speak Korean”, “Where you a whore for the Chinese during your escape” … Those comments make me so angry and feel hurt, especially the last one. Why can’t I be seen as an average person rather than some attraction in an amusement park? Why can’t I say I’m North-Korean without getting such comments? Where do those people even get the right to ask such questions if they don’t know me?
Nowadays people make me feel like I can’t be proud anymore. I have to shut up about my own country and I can’t share my experiences anymore, because the truth is only to be found in the news and documentaries. I wish I could still speak Korean fluently so I could curse at them. They make me ashamed of my country and I’m starting to hate them.